I miss my friends. The ones I talked to almost everyday.

I’m beginning to slip into a dark place again. Its been months, thankfully, but I hope this doesn’t last; my birthday is 6 days away. 

Sitting alone in my house, in my room playing music, none of which seems to bring any ease to what I’m feeling. Wishing I had friends besides the ones at my work. There are very few people that text me nowadays, I’m always the one who has to start the conversation. I know people like me, but I don’t feel like a friend thats at the top of anyone’s list. And what sucks is that I can’t do much about it. With my job and my sleeping schedule, its not easy.

There are several people who I’d love to talk to right now, but I haven’t talked to some in a while, and I don’t want to bring them down with my mood. 

Ugh, I just feel like who gives a fuck about me. Its hard to have self esteem when you’re not talking to people or hearing encouragement. 

I’ve been longing to have someone lately. Nothing major to the point that I’m depressed. Just kinda wishing is all. Seems like everyone around me has a mate and I’m just like yay me. Oh wells. Shit’ll happen soon enuff.

Haven’t been on here in forever. Lets change this.